Light and Dark Stereotypes of Kharmii

The doctor and two of his aides spent almost two hours questioning us and performing tests. Since I told them Gretchen's condition might be genetic, and that I had some of the same problems when I was a child, they observed both of us. They watched us walk and tested our reflexes. Both of us have no reflex response in our feet, although I responded to the tuning fork test and knee reflex test.

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This was a fun story to tell, but it's possible there's nothing at all wrong with my family. Maybe we just have some unfortunate features that might be symptoms of a greater disease if too many are put together but mean nothing alone. There's also the 'family demons' theory..that tragically and coincidentally, so many of us have experienced extreme emotional hell that we've become mentally strange from that. Tests on Gretchen might be a complete waste of time, but I don't feel too bad. We could get peace of mind either way, then let Gretchen enjoy the holidays, maybe getting the surgery during the shiddy, do-nothing months of Jan-March.

Seriously though, killing off Xamot was super weak. If this comic series is still going, they should give him a soap opera revival, like maybe he could have been off overseas in some shithole country this whole time working for the Unione Corse. When he came back, he could tell Tomax he went incognito because he hadn't felt their connection anymore and wanted to do his own thing, but now it's out of his system. He'd be ready to come back and be rich and successful again. Tomax would be super pissed, of course. He might say something like, "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?! I almost killed myself eating TOXIC PAINT CHIPS in PRISON because of you!! What if you would have come back and found out I was long dead?! Just the other day, I passed the spot where we (insert crude memory), and it brought me to my knees with grief!"

Xamot would give some excuse, like, "I'm a silly-silly. Now give me a big old hug!" Then they'd be good again. Tomax would forgive him because of his whole 'Slavery is freedom; I'm forever yours..' attitude.

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The last time I had written about this, I had only seen a few panels of the twins, then read the synopses of a few comics. Even so, after reading this, I feel like I had their attitudes down perfectly. The style of this comics is really neat though. The whole first half is in Tomax's pov, the second half is Xamot's and they meet in the middle, mirroring each other. Tomax is on the sunny side of life. In almost every single panel, he is smiling and looking very happy. Whether he's making plans, running a business, or choking the life out of some Unione Corse member who's supposed to be like family to him, he does it with a skip in his step and a smile on his face. It's almost like, given half a chance, he could give up his villainous ways and concentrate on building infrastructure.

Xamot, on the other hand, was turning into a dark edgelord pulling them back to villainy. He had suffered an injury that left him with a bruised ego. Sometimes when bad things happen to bad people, they might get a change of heart or find religion. Not so with Xamot. He felt isolation and confinement in the business world, and he longed for wide open spaces and the good old days when he could change the world with a gun and a pick up truck. He longed for freedom and adventure. It almost is like he was becoming a chaos worshiper, believing freedom came from having endless possibilities, whether good or bad.

Interesting how Tomax felt contempt for the extremism and isolation of a warlord who was powerless in the grand scheme of things, then made the comment about young Corsican soldiers shaving their heads to express misguided individualism. I wonder what he'll make of Xamot's new look and attitude? Tomax might be like, "What?! Are we fifteen? Sometimes I feel like shaving my head and saying 'goddammit all' to the world too, but then I just take a lunch, -maybe get a massage on the way- and I'm good". Anyway, I'll find out if I can find more free downloads. If anyone can help me out with this, please pm me a link. My old source is toast for now.

First I will put up my collection of IDW Comic panels along with commentary:

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It has taken me a month on and off to get this entry done! I'm on vacation from work right this moment, so I had a little free time to work on fandom and also crank out the first entry for against_pc currently in moderator queue. I hope it catches on. One thing I miss about LJ is the prolific political debates I used to get involved in. Now the communities with the most traffic have become echo chambers for sjws or hard leftists. therightfangirl gets good from time to time, but it's a community kept locked to keep out the troll horde.

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I almost did an outline for this in a notebook but then thought, "Ooooohh no..there's no way I'd ever finish this if I did that. I'd over think it to death." That's why I winged it over the course of a few days. I've been exhausting myself being busy all week, but in a way that I had time to think of silly stuff while I worked. Weather has still been almost non stop rainy or cloudy. I just checked the ten day report. They have got to be kidding:

The Kankakee River is almost up to the bridges, and the river has submerged bridges in Momence, which is screwed. The sheriff's department released a video showing an aerial view of flooding after Monday's rains. If one looks at 1:10, one can barely see the ripples where the dam is. The high side is level with the low side, and one can only see the top of the arches on the Station Street bridge. I've never seen it like this in all the years I've lived here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO-_Z0ibzOY

I'm spending WAYY too much time on the internet reading about Puppygate, where a few conservatives -who were attacked by sjws trying to ruin their careers- altered the Hugos so that sjws would stop dominating them with gay and gender preaching. I loved reading this from one of the main players: http://monsterhunternation.com/2015/04/09/a-response-to-george-r-r-martin-from-the-author-who-started-sad-puppies/

I was banned today from ultra leftist George RR Martin's LJ. He never unscreened my comment. All I wrote was the following in reply to someone else defending the Sad Puppies: "Even other leftists are starting to think that sjws are crazy." Then I dropped this link: http://www.thecrimson.com/column/words-words-words/article/2015/3/12/simplistic-social-justice-warrior/

The banning was probably the result of 1.) Leftist intolerance for dissenting opinions -and- 2.) Martin treating the term 'sjw' as if it were the n-word. Even though I was banned, I've been still reading Martin's biased posts. I found this disturbing thread:

http://grrm.livejournal.com/418643.html?thread=20802643#t20802643

-Don't know what else this John C. Wright has written to offend the sjws, but they are calling him a homophobe because he objects to a lesbian relationship being canon in a children's cartoon? That's kind of creepy and not in a way I like. I was thinking of my Tomax and Xamot fandom in reply to this, like it would be funny to take the piss and pretend like I want to campaign to have my inappropriate brotherly love headcanon become real canon because of how these twins look at one another meaningfully.

Then I came to the conclusion I had better not because of Poe's Law: "Any sufficiently advanced troll is indistinguishable from a genuine kook." People might take me seriously because of how rabid sjws are. If it's supposedly okay to push homosexual romance in kid cartoons, then how can twincest be called icky, YOU INTOLERANT BIGOTS!!! Seriously, that's the mentality of a small handful of bullies who want to force public acceptance of a certain lifestyle on an unwilling populace. People become afraid to speak out against it, but they'd still believe it's wrong in their secret hearts. This Sad Puppy campaign gives me hope that people are willing to push back hard against sjws and their idea of 'wrong think'.

I'd feel like a skeevy weirdo even joking around about pushing twincest or any incest as a norm. I know it's wrong, but that's the fun of it in this case. Tomax and Xamot are creepy because of their psychic connection; that's the appeal with me. IE: They finish each others sentences and they have incestuous relations because they can feel the sensations of each others bodies telepathically. The newer versions of them run a cult in the middle of the desert where they've mind controlled people into worshiping them as gods. I came up with a chilling head canon about how they have a bunch of children from people they've raped under mind control. If that doesn't make a person's skin crawl then what would? I'm not trying to pass any of these ideas as great, wonderful, acceptable btw...just personally fun. :-P The old me would have trolled these ideas hard, but I've been acting in good faith of late.

Ten years ago, I found out about Ebay, but I used to be a buyer. This was back when I worked as a manager at Hardees, I think, while I waited for my postal test results. I bought a bunch of useless stuff, like native American spiritual figurines and scented candles. Then my parents got pissed off and told me that if I could afford to buy stupid shit, then I could afford to move out. I said, "Fair enough" and quit. Oh no wait...this has to be more than ten years ago, like when I worked for Dr. Bhayani and just started hanging out with my scumbag friends. Anyway, I don't know what clicked in my mind and when and why, but one day, I thought, "Heyy! I can do this! I could sell stuff on Ebay! My parents wouldn't object to me collecting money, LOL!"

The hunting began. I had a huge collection of books that I didn't need, so I started putting up $.99 auctions because they only cost ten cents, and I could relist for free once. I sold enough that I was covering the auction prices of the stuff I didn't sell, plus making a profit. I admit, I sold a lot of stuff for $.99, but I slightly inflated the shipping to get a little more. Sometimes I'd get lucky and have something get bid up almost to what it was worth. I started buying books at garage sales. There were two instances when I got REALLY lucky. One was when I found a book called The Preppie Handbook that got bid up to thirty bucks. Then I found a book called Encyclopedia of Things That Never Were that got bid up to $80. The lady running that particular garage sale had boxes of pewter Dungeons and Dragons figurines. She gave me a few for free, saying she wanted to get rid of them. I could kick myself because I sold those pretty high on Ebay. I should have offered her a lump sum for the whole lot. I haven't seen anyone selling those since either.

I worked with this lady, Laveda, who I used to call the Great Folk Hero of the Post Office because her battles with management were legendary. About Laveda: She used to tell Yolanda in so many words what a useless human being she was. -My hero, seriously. She had a disabled son and a daughter. The son was one of those thalidomide babies who was born with a flipper at the elbow of one arm. He lived on his own and passed away suddenly of a heart attack. Yolanda spread around that when they found him many days after the terrible event, his black Labrador was eating off his body. That is why I hate Yolanda forever, like who says that? It's so believable too, because it's totally something a disgusting dog would do. I don't believe it because Laveda still had the dog when I went by her house. You'd think someone would have put it down (with his/her own hands) if the rumor was true. Back on topic: One day, she asked me if I wanted to buy some of her son's old things. I ended up coming away with two solid oak antique end tables (one of which I take my Ebay pictures on) and a medium sized bookcase filled with hundreds of sci-fi and fantasy books. I made so much on Ebay for the books that I made my money back for the whole lot many times over.

Back then, I used to either wrap books in paper grocery bags or else I'd buy 9x11 sized shipping envelopes when they were on sale at Walgreens four for a dollar. Sometimes I'd get lucky and find someone selling a huge box of shipping envelopes at a garage sale, pretty much giving them away. Also, I always recycled the envelopes I'd get when I'd mail order something. I hadn't caught on to click and ship yet, so I would take all my sales to work and stand in line. Eventually, I caught on that it was worth buying printer ink and paper, just so I could print labels at home. I tried to go cheap, using the blank back sides of already used papers, like bill invoices and such. I would buy refurbished ink, but quickly abandoned that because every third time I'd get skunked with a cartridge I absolutely could not make work. Now when I buy ink on Ebay, I have to type 'geniune ink cartridge' for my model in the search engine. They are pricier but guaranteed to work.

You know how you see ads where people claim to be able to remodel their house with money they make selling on Ebay? It's true! I made so much money that when I mortgaged my first house at age 28 and finally moved away from my parents, I was able to buy all kinds of things to decorate. Back then, I would buy the things I needed directly, but it was difficult to find a deal, as people are prone to gouge. I don't gouge. Since I buy stuff at garage sales or on clearance, I price stuff to sell. That way, I can move so much cheap merchandise that it adds up quickly. I have a credit card bill every month for expenses because Ebay charges 10% final value fees for everything you sell, but I have so much more in PayPal, where the money goes when you sell something.

Right around the time when Randall was going through the immigration process, mom started selling stuff on my account. She sold mostly books, some artwork she got tired of, and some clothes. When I'd sell clothes, I'd put them in lots, as I didn't believe people would buy one article of used clothing. Mom proved me wrong by selling a lot. Now we both have it down to a science, like what brands are guaranteed to sell, what brands will sell after a while, what particular article of clothing sells better with each gender, what kind of kid clothes people are more interested in, etc. We try to keep everything we sell under 13 ounces, as first class shipping is much cheaper than priority or parcel post. Jeans, sweaters and shoes often go over, but are popular enough people will pay higher shipping. I don't sell books much anymore, as I often get hosed on media mail shipping if I don't inflate it enough, while Ebay gives me a discount for every other kind of shipping. I used to ship first class parcels in paper business envelopes, -to keep it light- but I've had a few parcels get mangled in the postal system and lost. Now I buy light-weight plastic shipping envelopes off Ebay in bulk. I can get 200 for under $15. Mom still uses paper envelopes because she gets used ones for free at work.

Mom is a lot better at Ebay selling than I am. She is more committed to buying stuff at garage sales or clearances to make a profit, whereas I buy a lot of stuff for myself and the kids, and only sell if I can't use it. Mom came up with the idea to use the money we make to buy gift cards on Ebay, instead of goods directly for a gouge. You can get a lot of gift cards or store credit cheaper than they are worth, just so long as you don't buy gas cards, Walmart cards, Amazon or Costco. Those always go for more. I've been buying a lot of Lowes cards at a discount, to fix this place up.

The downside to Ebay selling is having a lot of junk sitting around in tupperwares. I always sell stuff I've had for awhile in lots so I can reduce the stock. When I move to Indiana, I'm going to decide if I want to give everything to the church garage sale and start over, or seriously haul everything to the new house. Hopefully, I'll move in the spring, when stock is down anyway, because the only way I get new merchandise over winter is shopping clearance at Goodwill or finding odds and ends on clearance everywhere else. I got rid of A LOT of stuff before the last move, as I didn't want clutter and didn't want to sort through a lot of junk with twin babies. It will be great to move to Indiana because Illinois is always trying to pass laws to tax some of our online profits. Hopefully we will be long gone before they start coming after people. They shouldn't be able to though, because it's like a big online garage sale or flea market. People already got taxed when they bought the items the first time; why should they be double-taxed? We live in a bankrupt state though, so they'll try to get what they can get.

Ebay takes time, like you have to take detailed photos of your merchandise, and you have to give exact measurements for clothing so people will take more care and not return stuff as much. Sometimes you have to answer questions about your item, so people can get more information before purchasing. It's worth it though, because once you list something, it takes no effort to go do something else and let people view your items online. You don't have to take a day off to set up a garage sale or a booth at a flea market, and you can get a steady income, instead of one lump sum from a day of effort. You do have to check email often, in case someone bought an item and sent money through PayPal.

Sometimes a buyer will bid on something and not pay for it. You can open a case against them to get your final value fees back. Mom and I have been selling so long we have a high rating and get free listings often. We get so many free listings that we never pay to list anymore. We used to have a top rated selling status, but ran into a few douches who gave us negative feedback after the post office lost their parcels. Even though we could prove it was the fault of the post office, they still did it to be malicious because there are all kinds online. One time there was a glitch and some idiot was able to leave neutral feedback on an item she never paid for. We had to open a case against her. Mom called Ebay to ask them to remove the bad ratings that weren't our fault. She got a hold of a foreigner who couldn't speak English well, and who kept repeating the same phrases over and over again, which makes us believe they don't know what they are doing. It's annoying because we could have 300 positives, but one negative knocks us down to Power Seller for a month. I love Ebay though because it's an addicting hobby bringing a very satisfying return.

First, I will talk about how my day went at work on Wednesday. The fat broad across from me gets every Monday off. Her sub is really awesome and gets her route done faster than fatty, so of course she has it in for her. Tuesday, she called off and the supervisors put a sub on her route who is known to do the bare minimum of work and nothing extra, while the awesome sub will go above and beyond. When Fat Lady came in today, she had piles of mail left over from the day before, yet managed to say something negative about the good sub and nothing about the bad, even though the good sub cleaned up her mail on Monday. Then she proceeded to describe how she had been up since 4AM the previous day throwing up because of getting a bad reaction from her medication. I believe she is pushing for some kind of disability to jump on so she can get paid early retirement.

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Whew! That was a long one and I may have to edit it and add a few things! It took me three days to write because I haven't had much free time lately because of other interests. That's okay. This is one of those things I should have made an outline to organize my thoughts before writing. When I was halfway through and went to chorus practice on Wednesday, I was so mentally tired that I probably wouldn't have been able to write much of anything coherent anyway. From now on..OUTLINE=IMPORTANT. Now, I just have to work on the accompanying drawing. It will be very surreal and have a story all its own, but I'll still attach this because I'm a dickens like that. Also, I have a few other ideas for drawings and a short story in progress. The ball is finally rolling on Kharmii's Spartan Family.